sigh.
i've got some hectic times ahead of me. varsity getting hectic, getting confused abt things. general campus duties getting political, geez just give me a prac to do and thats it, why involve me in a freakn staff war.
anyway, my escape was home, and now things so busy here. stepmum was babysitting her brother's 2 little sons for couple weeks. those 2 together with my little bro....i lost my quiet escape. today things just got waayyy annoying. uncle came back, so a lot of family was here. it was SO LOUD, i just wanted time to myself to think. there was none. i got so sick of the crashing bashing crying fighting talking about muslim politics and how hot the weather is.
being generally depressed abt certain things in my life, coupled with my lack of space at home, i felt claustraphobic. i got angry at innocent ppl and that made me feel even worse. this was supposed to be chillax sunday. but this is life, and tomorrow is monday in all senses of the word. gotta get a grip and just keep living.
i found my escape tho. i went outside and heard the a1gp cars in the distance. wat a beautiful sound that was. just this echo of single seater beasts, nothing distinguishable, just calming. ahhhh. i closed my eyes and just stood there for 5min. then took a deep breath and went back into the house.
