Opeth - Silhouette

ummmm just my little attempt at it :P been playing piano for 2 and half months now....i think in a couple months im gonna record it again coz its not fluid, timing gets off, i made mistakes, unclear, wrong tabs, made up some stuff....anyway:

Hope

This was done to "Korn - No One's There".....its unfinished. need to add some stuff, but im lazy. so here it is.

I've decided to start healthy eating

i'm now actually leaving the tomato slices in my take-out burgers. its quite a big step for me, ugh.

Just want to get to 100 hits ffs

Okee dokee, this things been on YouTube for 10months now, and i havnt got 100 hits yet LOL.....thats pathetic. its just a short vid i made for my little bro last yr....when i had time.......wish i had the original footage and cut, i want to change some things, but windows movie maker is a bitch.

City Bird Pictures presents.....Conqueror 9000!!!!!! meh i want to make another one.

Sex

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No Shame @ 4 Years Old

me (a bit puzzled): noosh...do u want to go to the toilet?

little bro (holding groin area): no, my penis is just itching.

me: oh.

Music is Haraam

i've been listening to some unbelievable music. i'm not sure if i've made such a beautiful discovery like this, not since i've seen [things i will not talk about here]. ok not much of a discovery, more like a gift, since it was shown to me...this is why i feel guilty? this music brings out the pure beauty of life. the feeling. i don't quite know how to explain it, i'm just sitting here typing hoping it will come out.

because i don't know how else to do it....i really dont. i want to talk in music, or in some form of beauty. i gotta stop using the word beauty. lol.....limited vocab sucks, gotta work on that too....anyway. i feel calm. and content. and im smiling inside....coz nothing else matters in this mindset....and all i wanna do is share it with sum1 else. to see them smile, and see them feel what i'm feeling....

but i don't know how. the creativity is wanting to burst out, but im scared i wont do it justice....do i write a song on guitar? do i sketch more? do i make a video to the song? i suck at it all, its not right that i wont get the right feeling out. i'll just leave it in there then, its my sin i'll have to live with: not sharing it.

i'm sorry. i'm still trying and will let u know :P others have probably found the same feeling in something else, of course, but i cant take any chances and will keep trying. coz it will make me feel better.

Don't Make Stevie Wonder Jokes Again...

coz.....man.....the guy is good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SCZv7786KY

:/

Started Sketching Again...

its called "I am more than me and thus defied you." and can click on it for larger res.

i havnt sketched in a while...but my 'recent' sketches have been based around 3 characters....u only see 2 here. i just wish i had the skill and patience to do better stuff, to get things out my head and onto paper eehheheheh.....but rite now i just sketch basic ideas, and thats it :P so looks plain...usually my drawings tie in with the song i'm listening to at the time....this was to Opeth - The Apostle in Triumph. maybe i'll post some of my previous work in later posts...

edit: okee trying to make some difference to the power of visuals by "painting" it....lazily, in paint shop pro :) since its an edit, i made the pic mini...click on it

Effect

i just like it coz it looks funky and the eeeyyyyeessss :|

McDonald's

hey so. i went to mcdonalds yesterday after quite some months and had a quarter pounder with cheese. it tasted like shit.

i also had a haircut yesterday....went to some paki place, the guy was OVER-passionate abt trimming around my sideburns and ear area....he ended up fucking it up. wat an idiot

Tomorrow's Monday

sigh.

i've got some hectic times ahead of me. varsity getting hectic, getting confused abt things. general campus duties getting political, geez just give me a prac to do and thats it, why involve me in a freakn staff war.

anyway, my escape was home, and now things so busy here. stepmum was babysitting her brother's 2 little sons for couple weeks. those 2 together with my little bro....i lost my quiet escape. today things just got waayyy annoying. uncle came back, so a lot of family was here. it was SO LOUD, i just wanted time to myself to think. there was none. i got so sick of the crashing bashing crying fighting talking about muslim politics and how hot the weather is.

being generally depressed abt certain things in my life, coupled with my lack of space at home, i felt claustraphobic. i got angry at innocent ppl and that made me feel even worse. this was supposed to be chillax sunday. but this is life, and tomorrow is monday in all senses of the word. gotta get a grip and just keep living.

i found my escape tho. i went outside and heard the a1gp cars in the distance. wat a beautiful sound that was. just this echo of single seater beasts, nothing distinguishable, just calming. ahhhh. i closed my eyes and just stood there for 5min. then took a deep breath and went back into the house.