i've been listening to some unbelievable music. i'm not sure if i've made such a beautiful discovery like this, not since i've seen [things i will not talk about here]. ok not much of a discovery, more like a gift, since it was shown to me...this is why i feel guilty? this music brings out the pure beauty of life. the feeling. i don't quite know how to explain it, i'm just sitting here typing hoping it will come out.because i don't know how else to do it....i really dont. i want to talk in music, or in some form of beauty. i gotta stop using the word beauty. lol.....limited vocab sucks, gotta work on that too....anyway. i feel calm. and content. and im smiling inside....coz nothing else matters in this mindset....and all i wanna do is share it with sum1 else. to see them smile, and see them feel what i'm feeling....
but i don't know how. the creativity is wanting to burst out, but im scared i wont do it justice....do i write a song on guitar? do i sketch more? do i make a video to the song? i suck at it all, its not right that i wont get the right feeling out. i'll just leave it in there then, its my sin i'll have to live with: not sharing it.
i'm sorry. i'm still trying and will let u know :P others have probably found the same feeling in something else, of course, but i cant take any chances and will keep trying. coz it will make me feel better.
6 comments:
I get what you mean, sometimes the end result is not what you imagined it to be...
I think you've got the talent...give yourself a chance. I think you'll do just great. The World is a Savage Garden, said Lestat, wild and beautiful at once. Man is either the gardener or the wonderer. Creation, and creativity are gifts from God.
:)
ooooo :)
This reminds me of that night at Shell garage...Madonna's "Frozen" playing on the CD player...the sight of the Zen, contemplating whatever it is, a man of the Zen's vast knowledge contemplates... which is another way of saying...who knows ? :P
dude....what a night that was :D and i see where u're coming from :/ altho, such a concept cannot co-exist with my initial theory and feeling, that was an existing song played in the light of a distorted consciousness
i am talking abt fully conscious, fully aware of it, and just being carried away...or maybe u were in that field of flame on the night in concern....so maybe u're right....it could be blasphemous to relate such Madonna-esque calm to the calm that is the eye-opening screeches of ur heart and soul....
which is another way of saying....who knows...
I found this. It was nice. I get it. The need to burst out creatively.
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